Passion

So I'm currently reading this book for my summer internship, called Leadership Essenials for Children's Ministry. The first section is about Passion, why it's important, some ways it has been "poisened" and how to produce a healthy passion. Something that has really gotten to me about this first section is the passion "poiseners" which include : Familiarity; Coolness; Uncertainty; Rambling; and Hardness. The biggest hit to my stance was "uncertainty" - now to be honest, these were not the best names for the topic he describes, but whatever. Anyway, he talks about being unfocused, in our ministry and in our life. If you are certain, then you should be focused and thus passionate about your ministry! (My paraphrasing)
I highighted these words that really hit me: "Without focus, there's no reason to get up in the morning. It's just another 9-5 day, or another Sunday.... Our focus is extremely important; if we have nothing to live for, it really doesn't matter how long our lives are. so we have to choose... to say "my focus is here.."

It just... I don't know, it hit me in a way that sort of shook me... have I been unfocused for so long? Is that why I never want to get up in the morning, even when Ive gotten great amounts of sleep consistently? Have I allowed myself to just drift off into this limbo area where I don't really know what I am doing, I'm just going about my duties? I don't want to live this way... and neither should you!! How do we fix it? Well, I'm not sure... get focused...? I'll let you know as I read further :)

in Him